work in progress wednesday #16

watching adult swim with the sound off

watching adult swim with the sound off

(all I am is what I am to you right now)
through the tunnel no one knows	I seek shade from my shadows
too late to talk or touch
ring			ring					no ring

my only weapon a body I hate
it’s way too early for me 
but for you    it’s far delayed
           touch me
take the parts of me I can’t tolerate
if I knew I was a failure in your eyes         how would it change

make my existence worth something
say you can’t sleep when I’m away

	because things never change
	or I can make it so
this morning I thought it	 felt I knew it for sure 
I swore I was blue       but now it’s Tuesday 
and I’m on the floor at Webster Hall thinking about you
except which of us is onstage and who’s in the bathroom 
who’s the doll with her head spinning, smashed against the asphalt 

in a world that’s too small 	my body hides ringing
never making that call		too busy crying		
dizzy singing

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