today i feel like

one of those magnets where you have to choose your emotion, but it's all of them

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poem

"i'm going back to Minnesota where sadness makes sense" by Danez Smith

o California, don’t you know the sun is only a god
if you learn to starve for her? i’m over the ocean

i stood at its lip, dressed in down, praying for snow.
i know, i’m strange, too much light makes me nervous

at least in this land where the trees always bear green.
i know something that doesn’t die can’t be beautiful.

have you ever stood on a frozen lake, California?
the sun above you, the snow & stalled sea—a field of mirror

all demanding to be the sun, everything around you
is light & it’s gorgeous & if you stay too long it will kill you.

it’s so sad, you know? you’re the only warm thing for miles
the only thing that can’t shine.

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affirmation

when the world feels big i will open myself bigger. when the world makes me
feel small i will make me larger inside. when the inside feels too large i can touch the skin that bears my heart. when my heart feels the world’s small i will stop and i can restart.

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now spinning

“Kilby Girl” - The Backseat Lovers
Spotify | Apple Music

“House Of My Soul (You Light The Rooms)” - Langhorne Slim
YouTube | Spotify | Apple Music

“Taco Truck x VB” - Lana del Rey
Spotify | Apple Music

“Punk Rock Girl” - The Dead Milkmen
Spotify | Apple Music

“DOGTOOTH” - Tyler the Creator
YouTube | Spotify | Apple Music

“Gold Dust” - Duster
Spotify | Apple Music

“You Don’t Go to Parties” - 5 Seconds of Summer
Spotify | Apple Music

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