in the late 1800s the leading cause of death
in the late 1800s the leading cause of death
was january
poem
"Stray" by Elizabeth Alexander On the beach, close to sunset, a dog runs toward us fast, agitated, perhaps feral, scrounging for anything he can eat. We pull the children close and let him pass. Is there such a thing as a stray child? Simon asks. Like if a mother had a child from her body but then decided she wanted to be a different child’s mother, what would happen to that first child? The dog finds a satisfying scrap and calms. The boys break free and leap from rock to rock. I was a stray man before I met your mother, you say, but they have run on and cannot hear you. How fast they run on, past the dark pool your voice makes, our arms which hold them back. I was a stray man before I met you, you say. This time you are speaking to me.
playlist
“The Greatest Smile” - SAULT
Spotify | Apple Music
“Druun - Live at the Murmrr Theater” - DIIV
Spotify | Apple Music
“Cooking” - Current Joys
Spotify | Apple Music
“Space Goth Coast to Coast” - Vestron Vulture
Spotify | Apple Music
“NO HAY LEY” - Kali Uchis
YouTube | Spotify | Apple Music
“Should be Fine” - Weval
Spotify | Apple Music
“Rumble” - Skrillex, Fred again…, Flowdan
Spotify | Apple Music
“Echo - Huna Edit” - RAPRAVE, Araya, HUNA
Spotify | Apple Music
“Vampiro” - French Police
Spotify | Apple Music
album releases this month
The Subways - Uncertain Joys
Circa Waves - Never Going Under
Belle and Sebastian - Late Developers
Mac DeMarco - Five Easy Hot Dogs
Maneskin - Rush!
Wilco - Cruel Country
Samia - Honey
Ava Max - Diamonds & Dancefloors
Sam Smith - Gloria
SG Lewis - AudioLust & HigherLove
Smashing Pumpkins - ATUM
reading corner
I just finished Candy House by one of my favorite authors, Jennifer Egan. I was first recommended A Visit From the Goon Squad in 2017 while I was in a (very formative) intermediate fiction class at NYU. My then-professor told me MY tone reminded her of Jennifer Egan. (Can you believe that?) Reading this newest book of hers reminded me of that professor and the unfinished fiction drafts and ideas I have, and the daydream of how easy it would be to just finish it all. I could. But will I? I should. But would I, if I could? Yes. I think yes. I say yes, again and again, every time. So what am I waiting for then?
For now, I am reading:
Origin by Dan Brown (for my fiction fixin’)
Not All Diamonds and Rose by Dave Quinn (for Housewives lore)
American Governor: Chris Christie’s Bridge to Redemption by Matt Katz (for New Jersey lore)
Reddit threads, random Twitter fights, Radar Online articles, and other garbage
My current mantra: I can change my reality if I want to
