dream journal

a found poem based on my real texts about my real dreams

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I dreamt my friends went on vacation without me // I dreamt the song ‘Happy Birthday’ got changed but I hadn’t seen // I dreamt I was trapped in my own house trying to escape // about Lana del Rey // that you hated my hair // that I had to convince him to stay // that his mom stabbed you in the thigh with a grappling hook // that my English teacher cashiered at a bookstore // that no one wanted to deal with me anymore // that we rescued people from flooded cars // that there was a fire in the side yard // that it rained five stories’ worth of water  // I dreamt my high school became an airport // of a baby I had to abort // about a Real Housewife // that someone’s name was David Wright // that he found his way inside // that I discovered a hidden hall // that my mom bought my sister an American Girl doll  // that I’d never make it on time // that your boss did ayahuasca and lost his mind  // that a severed hand was on the bed // that you wouldn’t listen no matter what I said // that I was hanging out with charli xcx and my mom // that I only had one hour left before she was gone // that a bridge collapsed and I told you to run // that my best friend would be waiting downstairs when I woke up // that they kicked me out // that we had a son // that I set a boundary // that your mom didn’t like me // that I was on The Real World MTV // that I overslept // that you kissed someone else // that you hid it from me // of a massive tornado sucking me onto the street // that at last she got her revenge, and sweet // I dreamt of a pain that would never end // I dreamt they sent me back to him // that I was meant to deliver ripe avocados but got confused // that he had killed someone and I had to warn you // of soldiers going house to house and shooting in the blue // of running in the dark // of my secrets uncovered by the patriarch // about the band room // about people walking through my apartment // that the tide was coming and I could do nothing to stop it

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